saron: four months

Saron is so much fun right now, it's ridiculous! I want her to stay right here at this stage forever! She smiles, giggles, and coos at everything and everyone. She is such a happy baby. I feed her rice cereal, oatmeal, barley and bananas and she is getting to be pretty good at eating off a spoon, but it still takes a long time. Each bite has to be fed to her three times because she only swallows half the bite every time and spits the other half out. I love seeing her face, though. She gets so excited over every bite and it cracks me up!

She loves music, Baby Einstein movies, batting at toys on her play mat, and being bounced on my knees. She can roll over both ways, but she still doesn't do it often and gets a little frightened sometimes when she does it on accident. It's hilarious. And she is a total daddy's girl. She just stares at Tyler with the most adoring eyes and always loves to be in his lap while he works. She really loves her bath these days, too, and is learning that it can be fun to splash and kick around. She's starting to get a little nervous of strangers and definitely prefers her parents, but if we are holding her she is always eager to smile and talk to anyone who gets near her. I think she's going to be quite the chatterbox when she finally learns to talk.

It was about a year ago that I found out that I was pregnant. It always seemed so scary, having a baby. I was so nervous about everything -- how to hold her, how often to feed her, clipping her fingernails, how to bathe her, how to calm her when she cries, when to start feeding her solids, blah blah blah. There are so many things to think about when you are the one 100% in charge of someone so helpless! But I have been truly amazed at how easy and natural everything has been for me. I really do believe that women have powerful instincts that we are born with. I had no idea that I had those instincts within me until having a child of my own, and it's been such a great journey for me to discover the mother inside of me. Before having Saron, I always thought I would have three, maybe four kids. Now I feel like I can't wait to have another and I want five or six kids. It's funny, though, because most people kind of feel the opposite way. But I've realized that being a mom is the only thing that I want to do. And I've got to be honest, it feels good to be so loved and needed by such a cute little thing as Saron :)