So Tyler and I have a lot of changes happening in our life right now or in the near future. Which makes me feel a lot of feelings. Excited, scared, hopeful, a little regretful, kinda old... I'm sure that's normal and all a part of growing up, but it's still strange nonetheless. I feel like each decision that I've made in my life has closed the doors of countless others until I'm left with the life that I have right now. Maybe I should think of it the other way around. Each decision that I make opens new doors. Somehow it doesn't feel like that's the way it is, though.
Tyler showed me this video today. This is one of my all-time favorite songs, no matter who sings it. It brings back memories, fills me with regret, and makes me want to turn back the clock to simpler days.
Don't get me wrong, I love my life!
But I feel like I never made the most of the time that I had in each stage of my life. Maybe I should take that as a lesson to make the most of the time that I'm living right now with Tyler. I love where we are right now, and I hope I never look back and feel like I didn't make the most of it.
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I loved this video. I am going to share it with friends. I know what you mean Krystyna. I feel like that a lot. If it is any consolation, I definitely feel like I get some of my youth back now that I have children. I am free to be silly and free and they are two of my bestest friends. It is a lot of fun. But you are right, it is hard as chapters close. Sometimes I get sad thinking I will never live with a bunch of fun girl roommates again and be that carefree college girl. Or be that high school soccer player living for the stake dances and having crushes on all these boys.
But you are soooo right. The minute I start living life like that I will not be enjoying life in the present and I will look back and say, "Those years when my children were small were so fun" A mom just said to me the other day as my children played in the water at the swim club indoor pool, "Those were the good days" referring to when her two "tween " boys were that age.
That impressed me and I realized that these are years to be cherished.
I hate that we sometimes feel the need to hurry life along. I mean..how many times as a child did you think to yourself " I can't wait till I am older!" Like being older would magically fix things??I remember hating having a bedtime or having a curfew. I even remember thinking towards the end of my living in China, "ohhh..I can't wait to be home." Well, now that I am home I wish I was there. Sure wish the grass would stop looking greener in other places.Sometimes it can be difficult to enjoy the stage of your life that you are in. Like Tiff mentions that she misses her single, spontanious, living with fun girls time in her life. Well, thats my stage and as fun as it can be I will find myself sometimes longing for the husband and having babies time in my life. All chapters have good and the not so good. We just have to remember to enjoy the good and endure through the not so good.
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